that don't warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !
“ i know that i cannot escape
paying the penalty of old age,
in increasing dimness of sight
and dullness of hearing.
i shall find myself slower
to learn new lessons,
and apter to forget
the lessons i have learnt ”
mischance can capsize
the most well organised army
but overall themes come into play
and the balance of power
generally tells in favour
of these themes
like the superior naval skills
of the greeks against the persians
and their better metallurgy and armour
had he been more cautious
in the excitement of the battle
about killing his brother
remain sitting at your table and listen.
you need not even listen, simply wait.
become quiet, and still, and solitary.
the world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked.
it has no choice.
it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.
they were gassed by the nazis
you need to leave the room,
the world is abitch
and will get you at the table
if you stay in one place too long
: o )
( photos of him at one and between two and three -
in the middle of the linked page ),
precocious, depressed, a sharp bright energy there..............
pity about the TB
of
schizophrenics
zen
is
astoppable
bandwagon
full of schizophrenics !
what's
the
difference?
you will manufacture it if the circumstances are benign,
which of course they never are
as aperson you are angry and hurt
life has been a very rough innings for you
the basics may have been there but superior competence is not
you
are
digging
a
ditch?
the above quote by thich nhat hanh (lol go yoda!)
stepping on my dead wife's comb
in the bedroom
buson (1706-83) composed this while his wife was alive.
his wife tomo outlived him by 31 years.
another translation of his fictional haiku
the translations of rumi
we see today
are spaced out vacancies
done by boozed nits
with low brain blood sugar : o )
indicates the rich complexity
of rumi's language and meaning,
that alas may be forever lost to us,
alienated by time and culture
as we are
from the interweb of meanings
available to him
and his contemporaneous
listeners and readers !
what rumi wrote at all : o )
a. j. arberry who does a relatively literal translation indicates the rich complexity of rumis's language and meaning, that alas may be forever lost to us, alienated by time and culture as we are from the interweb of meanings available to him and his listeners and readers !
i don't think we see today what rumi wrote at all : o )
not
complete
the blindness of people
following their own needs
female
brain
is
a
gardener
in the absence
of a more direct perception
of what it's about
in the absence
of a more direct perception
of what it's about
zazen only looks like something
in the absence
of a more direct perception
of what it's about : o )
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forget safety
live where you fear to live
your
reputation
be
notorious
tried
prudent
planning
long
enough
from
now
on
i'll
be
mad
the first is that there is a good possibility
that shams-i-tabrīzī
was murdered by one of rumi's sons !
now the quotes are vacant
but in fact my experience of religious translations
is they are usually very poor
and the original writings come from cultural contexts
is necessarily lost today
!
with a cautious prudence as to safety
there is the necessity of going outside boundaries !
مع السلامة الحذر هناك ضرورة من الذهاب خارج الحدود
arabic
treading carefully one has to go through one's boundaries : o )
or
there is the necessity of going outside boundaries
even with caution it's dangerous enough : o )
شما باید برای عبور از مرز، با وجود کار و خطر
هناك حاجة للتغلب على الحدود، حتى مع الحذر من الخطر
we get fried
staying inside the boundaries
as well
:o)
تحصل على تضررت نحن أيضا، إذا بقينا داخل أنفسنا
i might as well not pretend not to be mad : o )
فشلت كل خططي وأنا قد وكذلك لا أدعي أنني لست مجنونا
i might as well stop pretending
not to be mad : o )
فشلت كل خططي وأنا كذلك قد وقف التظاهر أنا لست مجنونا
but you will never get enlightened
so you will always be doing zazen : o )
a woman's dissatisfaction is like erosive acid
having spent time in zen
where one is spoon fed the notion of “gratitude”
let me offer the opinion
it's poisonous and destructive
and a meme designed to create subservience
to whatever religious paradigm : o )
one feels gratitude only a few times in a lifetime
and it's when something
unexpected and significant is done for us,
in terms of the developing understanding
with this work
i can't say i have ever felt gratitude,
it's more just a relentless progression of work ! : o )
people basically getting you to do the work for them
and never stretching themselves at all!
to not go in circles
but move,
ever so slightly
to a more productive space
which is actually the work of alife time : o)
i wouldn't view conflict as unhealthy at all : o )
i don't mean physical violence or sabotage
which are generally speaking disasters
i wouldn't view conflict as unhealthy at all : o )
i don't mean physical violence or sabotage which are
generally speaking, but not always, disasters
it and men are there to be used
the paradigm is feeding children,
they have to grab grab,
a child who goes without food
for several days
can die or become ill
it and men are there to be used
the paradigm is feeding children, they have to grab grab,
a child who goes without food for several days can die or become ill
and christ was not yet,
from Cicero to Marcus Aurelius
was a unique moment
when only man was : o )
you and prediabetes
need each other
I try to please my peers and superiors.
Though i admit, not always accomplished.
But underneath it all, I am a good person.
and the complexity of your poems (ed. eileen's) would upset him
ambiguity about good and bad would upset him
i find with the net it's essential to look at what else they have written to get a picture
i think he starts to see (ed. what eileens poems are about) then draws away
they demand too much change in him
he doesn't accept the supremacy of individual vision over the collective
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campaigning for my removal from the new hczb because i showed you up!
W A N K E R !
you are up on the web as a hypocrite
for the next thirty years,
and who knows, three thousand or three million
and they will wonder who you are,
immortal bad and sleazy behavior ; o )
but nothing sinks in with toads like you does it?
alan i think you need to shoot more breaking fluorescent tubes,
the mercury will do you good
i'm not 100% sure that he is the photographer,
but it think it's him ,
he has that same mental curveball
btw he's a good photographer
actually i'm sure it's him,
he has that complete self assurance
about being right
and no perception
of any other point of view
more visible : 0 )
like jesus and mohammed, bad fairy tales : o )
we need a common ground, supposedly you are concerned
about wether something is true or not?
so the question is, was this character gautama buddha
a real historical person?
i know for certain he wasn't because he's a non existant composite
of autistic insight and neurotypical sociality.
that sort of person can never exist in real life.
also anyone real about this is always in danger of being hung : o )
and the sort of subservience given to him in the stories is complete bullshit !
the interesting thing about buddhism is historically
the earliest carvings show that it was more a sort of merchant bank : o )
perhaps abit parallel to the knights templar : o )
it is in fact a reply to zafu frog
if they write complete crap or uninteresting,
i don't include it : o )
it's written in a way if you read the whole thing
you can work out the context
the above post is the result of years of research and thinking
i used to go to the auckland library when i was twenty
researching stuff on the bible and jesus
what the story with buddha is has come together in recent years
with the very good research material on the web : o )
as i have said before,
it's straightening out my own thinking
that i get with posting
like writing poems,
it opens things up
that have been closed off
poetry makes things more visible : o )
there is another vast road
that opens up
those not on it or don't see it get worried about trivialities
like being criticised on a facebook page
or the destruction of whatever house of cards
they have constructed about it all : o )
it is itself and speaks for itself
and you don't have to pretend,
prove anything to anyone else
or systemise it actually !
as you move more centrally on it,
be prepared for alot of rejection : o )
writes
thanks for listening, and this is the final warning about your language and the way you insult others who are just innocently trying to express themselves
reply
now is a car salesman innocent ; o)
and now jeff foster's
got rid of me
hope
to
find
not
another
and we don't want those punctured do we?
these so called seekers after truth,
but in reality the foulest deposits of build up
in the sewers
is voynichy nonsense, nisargadatta was a second rate philosopher ! : o )
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no conciousness in you, no conciousness in me, that makes 3 : o )
about as meaningful : o )
oh, i forgot, that is such a touching deep and beautiful truth : o ),
just don't mention money : o )
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why doesn't anyone talk about back pain,
if it's a manic swing to be joy in my deep, traumatic suffering,
to be love in the midst of hate and someone who has abused me,
to be truth in the illusion...... (ed. blah blah : o )
(ed. jeff fosters blog 14th october '12)
my
reply
who cares and who do you convince : o ) ?
when i post i'm always very careful that it extends me,
i don't repeat and each post moves me a bit
into something more helpful
we all have problems
and they stay there if you are just the circle
that returns to the same spot each time : o )
if there is a miracle it's being able to move from these problematic spots abit
one just has to read one's own posts carefully to know those spots : o )
one of mine is “competent depression”
placing oneself at the service of egotistical idiots : o ),
i think jeff has that issue too : o )
love's a strange force, (deep sigh) kneecap's us at the best of times : o )
my
reply
nature lets you knee cap
back
good interview
of
the
notion
of
species
a
s
well
as
being
species
themselves
Andrew Levin a vision for a better future means DOING something
not just naval gazing as much spirituality purports.
We need to DO and BE not just BE if we want a better world.
Many of the programs of consciousness transformation I am aligned with
are about DOING as a result of being,
not just talking about the inner experience.
Teresa and John were DOERS
and I appreciate their contribution to humanity.
what would be the context of a “better world” ?
“spiritual” itself is a fiction
as well as the notions of “doing” or “being” ...
like the heirs of empire,
the improvements and successes of one generation
are squandered by the next
and i for one don't give a fig
for “contributing” to humanity : o ),
a particularly stupid, toxic ape !
like schizophrenia or depression
or being on autistic spectrum
then life is a “real time furnace”,
and leaves it traumatized
from malnourishment and enviromental toxicities,
something starting at conception btw,
and the real “saints” of history
like john of the cross, teresa of avila
and catherine of sienna
were all neurologically traumatized,
when the walls are destroyed,
the garden is revealed,
it's that simple and the actuality
of walking in the garden
and being the garden
is what it all about,
the problem with religion
and i include advaita,
neo-advaita, non-duality and zen
is a new wall is erected that is called not a wall
and spewing the cliches
and not writing your own experience
and original thoughts is that wall
called not a wall : o )
by a car tootling through to the bottle store in a hurry
they didn't like it when i caught up with them at the bottle store
and complained (a woman driving)
one of the guys in the car already had had a few (imo) and was argumentative
in their thirties?
man is polygamous
higamous, hogamous
woman monogamous
blown
from
the
cherry
tree
twirling
like
butterflys
in
the
evening
sun
and yet, in truth, these are not ‘ordinary moments’ at all. these are only doorways of grace, gateless gates of morning dew and birdsong and tossed apple cores, portals into an unknown world much like our own, witnessed without a witness,
prior to the upsurge of thought.
“enter here”, they whisper in chorus, “and lose your
cleverness...”
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coils and burns and corrodes like hot acid,
when the tea gives diarrhea
but the dew drop
sliding down a blade of grass
explodes like a supernova in the dawn light,
that's enlightenment : o )
not to mention dying on laughing gas/nitrous oxide/oxygen : o )
you are a gullible sucker !
interesting, rajneesh had ms !
about my time
and what i do on the net
as being “unreal”
and
quite real in it's own way
infinity is as unreal as real
it is equally unreal as real
perhaps more unreal
look a good poem
like your one about genteel shabby
has its strength
from being both unreal and real
well he says he's non denominational
and doesn't belong to any religion
communes with god in meadows alone
is schizophrenic including myself,
you have to break from the schizophrenia
by circumventing the quantum uncertainty principle
which states that observation inteferes with with what is being observed
by making a lot of “ weak ” observations
to build up a picture that in time/of time
with what is observed..............
where people go wrong
is they don't do this process
but in the manner of magpies and bower birds
just pick up the shiny stuff lying around
and lay it down to attract females
or to pretty their nests : o )
but in the manner of magpies and bower birds
just pick up the shiny stuff lying around
and lay it down to attract females or to pretty their nests : o )
the sun and the sea
la mer et le soleil !
that is the still point
between the intensity of schizophrenia
and the rational observation
of how life works : o )
and the rational observation of how life works : o )
that by not giving the option to stop the ad flashing
earns hate rather than approval
i don't know : o )
presence
is a schizophrenic fiction
like dark ets
it's as crippling as a crack addiction i am afraid : o )
the
only
peace
is
in
the
grave
you
say
the
only
peace
is
in
the
grave
because i'd never come back willingly (page 3) : o (